Our wants are endless. It’s a fact. We want more than we can have but we keep wanting regardless. However, what I want is something I discovered through day dreaming as a child, teenager and now. What I want can’t be bought or sought after; it needs to just happen. What I want is love. Not your typical “ love you more, no I love you more” kind of love, no I want self-destructing, scar opening, hurtful, heartfelt love. I know you’re thinking why would anyone want that, well, because it will be so beautifully broken that it would take a real bond to keep it together. I want that kisses on the forehead in the morning, kisses on the checks at lunch and a kiss on the lips to seal the night. I want that “I love you more than myself” kind of love. The kind that hurts so sweetly that you become addicted to that sweet pain. I want that crying on the floor in your arms with my make up smeared kind of love. That “even though you’re broken, I still love you” kind of love. I want it all. I want that fighting at 3 in the morning with glasses crashing, I hate you so much right now, screaming so loud we wake the neighbors kind of love. I want that “more than love making, it is soul searching” kind of love. I want that dancing in the dark after midnight singing the lyrics to a song so sad that I can taste his tears on my lips kind of love. I want that we fight till we break up to make up and start new. I want it all. In all its tears, blood, scars, hurtfulness, brokenness, I want to love someone like that. To be able to fall weak on my knees and cry so loud knowing that they will still love me after I have confessed all my sins in the dark. It will be nice and sweet and dirty. It will be everything I want it to be. And honestly, until I find someone who shares that same view on love, I’m not settling, because I do not want anything less than extraordinary love so I wont settle for movie nights and dinner dates, No, I want adventure and emotional roller coasters and and and bitter sweet “I love your soul so much it hurts” kind of love.